I think this is the first NaNo that I truly wish would just be done. I'm whipped and my WC isn't even that great... shoot, knowing my normal enthusasiam and output for NaNo and similiar months, it's barely decent. But with classes and work... I'm gone 9-9, sometimes 8am-9pm depending on how early I have to leave. I get home by 9:30, grab a bite to eat and spend a few hours on homework. You'd think I'd be able to get that done soemwhere in those twelve to thirteen hours I'm gone, wouldn't ya?
That was my thought. But in reality... I get an hour break for dinner, where I spend half of it either doing homework or writing. On Mondays and Wednesdays I have just enough time to get from my class to work and swallow a half a sandwich while walking. Then I just tough it out till dinner. On Tuesdays and Thursdays I have enough time where I can actually go home for lunch (so I feel sane) and can walk a mile (I've just discovered I have time for this if I'm willing to cram lunch, oh my god, just the mile I did today makes me feel LOADS better). My weekends (Fri/Sat/Sun) are for catching up on homework, NaNo, my dogs, and well... the side jobs I'd already committed myself too before I took the new job. As much as the money is good for dog-sitting, I'm hoping this weekend is the last one I signed up for until after Christmas. I barely get to see my own bed anymore.
Unlike the student job where I occasionally had time for homework at work, I don't get that kind of luck for the staff job. I keep telling myself this is so going to be worth it after Christmas when I don't have the full load of classes under me so it's only work next semester with one class. It's definitely going to be worth it in the Summer when for the first time in a LONG time I won't have classes for a semester and I can enjoy having a three day weekend and a semi-light work schedule... Even more so if mom and dad don't change their mind and let me get a puppy (I'm *finally* at a probably status to add another dog to the house)*. And for the worry warts - this is the last semester where I'll be taking a full load. From here on out, I can't afford to pay for that out of pocket, and I refuse to build student loans on top of one another. So I'll just be taking classes as I can afford them. Which means I'll be a normal working dog-mom.
I keep reminding myself of all that while I plug away right now, but man, it all seems so far away and uncertain that I just want to crash. NaNo was supposed to make this month go faster, instead, I just feel like it's dragging more. Which is a shame, because I so love the story I'm writing. I just wish I didn't have every thing else to do too. I guess I'll just keep chanting: puppy, puppy, puppy, to myself until this is done. I can do this. I CAN do this.
*I've wanted a third dog for a few years now, but the idea is always vetoed as it comes out of my mouth. However, it's become clear that my current boy is not going to be the same dog he used to be and if I can't drag our little girl one house down on a walk, I'm definitely not going to be able to make a hiking buddy out of her (not to mention the fact that she's blind). Mom knows me, knows how much I do with my dogs. I live, breath and dream dogs. I surround myself with dogs. Me, who is utterly phobic of driving new places, learned out to drive 45 minutes away to the boarding kennel the rescue soemtimes holds dogs at so I could borrow dogs to help get over the loss of having Toby as my constant companion. My Christmas and birthday lists have always been stuff for my dogs, not for me (from dog videos to books, to dog toys, to dog treats). So mom yielded a little a few months ago after a heart felt letter from me (okay, an extremely depressed letter) and started thinking about it. She's since started to agree. Dad, the animal lover of the family, is surprisingly the one dragging his feet on the issue, but I'm up to probably now. I'm really hoping it turns to a yes soon, not that I'll get one until spring (must be able to drive to a training facility... from a half hour to over two hours away depending on what I choose - yeah, that's how much I want this and I still won't drive the 'scary big city' road around here to go to Wal-Mart).
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
I don't really have any hopes of updating the blog frequently for the next month or two, but I'll try to give occasional ones throughout. Today's been a busy, busy day. I stayed up last night to write at 12:01 to get a kick start on the first and managed 5k before bed. Then after cleaning the house, grocery shopping and helping out with some rescue stuff I managed the last 5k for my Day 1 goal. So I'm sitting comfortably at 10k for the day.
I'm not sure how much writing I'll be able to get every day, but at the very least, I know I have a strong buffer for the month. It's nice to know.
Now I'm off to bed and give my body the rest it deserves.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
And instead of using the time wisely and doing homework so I won't have to do it later... I made my new idea for NaNo - Star Fell - a cover:
Only to discover I had more time to wait... so I made one for another friend of mine as well. She wasn't picky about what she wanted (thankfully! I hate trying to make manipulations perfect for someone else, it's why I didn't go into Graphic Design):
Although the font on StrayDog will probably be redone the moment we can figure out how to send her the overly huge pdf file of it. I don't have a lot of fonts on my computer where as she's a font freak...
And then another one:
But now I'm down to an hour and a half! I can't wait! -bounces-